Bit Nervous

Well, today is going to be the day we see what's wrong with my ears. The clogging, sores, hurting and so on... Makes me nervous but I agree with my mother (gasp) that it is probably nothing for me to worry about. After all, my ears used to get infections a lot and that never bothered me. What makes now different?

Okay, nervousness aside I found out about my old Sunday school teacher's grandson. I've been praying for a while now for him and I was very happy to find out that the surgery on his legs went well, even though it was to remove them. He has prosthetic legs now and is finally able to walk. I mean, he wasn't able to before because of how weak his were (the reason they were amputated). For the first time he is realizing (or at least being vocal about realizing) that he is different from other kids in that aspect. All I can do is continue praying for him. I'm sure that someday - knowing his grandfather - he will have a close relationship with God and be able to get through all of these events in his life.

I'm praying for a bunch of my friends now. So many things are happening and there are so many people to pray for. I always secretly felt like I wasn't a good enough Christian to be dealing with all these requests and responsiblities. After all, with all the activities I'm in I was feeling absolutely burnt out. But after talking to my mom I realized that everyone has room for improvement, and I know that once I start becoming more comfortable with myself that I will also become comfortable with God again as long as I remember to myself that he is in control of all and that I need not to worry about the big things in life - or at least not worry with them by myself. After all, it's that inner peace that makes devout Christians so strong. Who knows, maybe that will help me in my battle for self-confidence.

Besides, how can I be a good witness to people if I'm not showing that Christian peace myself. I have to be a witness. I suppose all I can do now is do my best to pray to God and place these things in his hands. After all, He loves me and with Him I can never go wrong.